When I am yours alone

“Take my life. Take it all. I lay it at your throne. I am rich, satisfied, when I am yours alone. I have learned to live to lose. I have found my all in you. I count it all as loss, it’s true, cause I have learned to live to lose.

Precious one, crucified, died to set me free. I hope nothing back from you, who gave it all for me. I have learned to live to lose. I have found my all in you. I count it all as loss, it’s true, cause I have learned to live to lose.

Jesus you’re the one, you’re the only one for me. Jesus you’re the one, you’re the only one for me. Jesus you’re the one, you’re the only one for me. Jesus you’re the one, you’re the only one for me.

I have learned to live to lose. I have found my all in you. I count it all as loss, it’s true. I have learned to live. Yes I have learned to live to lose. I have learned to live to lose.”

In these past days I’ve felt the closest to God that I have ever been. Closer in a personal relationship with Jesus Christ than I have ever experienced in my life. Which is funny because in these past days I’ve never felt so far from this infinite being I call Father.

You see I’m finding that the more I learn about God, the less I already know, and the more there still is for me to learn. But you see that’s what makes God, God. We will never know everything there is to know about Him. We will never be able to wrap our minds around everything that is God. We’re supposed to believe in the power of the unknown. We’re supposed to worship Him because of the very fact that we will never completely know him.

I can’t do it. It drives me crazy. I thirst. I want more. I want it all and I want it now. I guess the problem is this: The less I know about God, the less I know about myself.

I want to find my all in Him. At the end of Proverbs 8, we’re told that whoever finds God, finds life. I want to find life. It doesn’t say that whoever knows everything about me, knows himself. It says whoever finds me, finds life. We’re also told in Jeremiah 29:13 “You will seek and find me, when you seek with all your heart.”

When I get questions I need to find answers. I need to seek with all my heart because that is when I will find Him. That is when I will find myself in Him. That is when I will see the power of the unknown.

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